why?

been a while again but here goes once more...  i am going to miss Elissa she is going to be leaving AZ for most of her Christmas vacation everytime I think about it my eyes water up and I want to cry.  I dont want to think about Christmas morning without her being here with me and I know I will probably be bawling because she is not here with us and even though I know my kids all have to grow up some time.  I also know that she has only 4 more years until she is 18 and can bid me adieu withough looking back (i doubt she would do that) and my heart is already dreading it.  It seems like yesterday when she was telling me that she could go to the bathroom by herself and I started crying then too.   I guess that even though Alexa, Abram and Jacob also said the same thing to me back in the day.... it wasnt as harsh as when your first baby tells you in not so many words that they are growing up.

and although, Thanksgiving has come and gone I am so thankful for the many blessings in my life....
1. My family who although sometimes I am sure can't believe that I am such a weirdo and I am sure at times they get fed up with me and my problems.  I am so thankful that they live so close to me that I can see my mom and dad and siblings every day and that we are close enough that we can enjoy each other's company and help each other out at any time on any day.  We really and truly are a family and i am so thankful for that
2. my Kiddos who although ALWAYS I am sure can't believe that thier mother is such a wierdo and I am sure at times wish they had a stay at home betty crocker june cleaver type mom.  I am so thankful that Heavenly father has blessed me by allowing me to be thier mom and also by giving me such strong and independant and beautiful children
3. My Faith who although I am not always the strongest or the holiest of believers and although I know I should really really be choosing the right even when I am not. I know that Heavenly Father is always there for me even when I am not always there for him.   I know the Church is true and I am thankful for the free agency that I am given and for the blessings and knowledge which the Church has brought into my life.
4. Last but not least for Jason who although is NOT the awesomest most handsomest most strongest most bestest husband nor is he always the bestest friend.  I am thankful that he is who he is and for the paitience that he has with me and my kids and for all the help that he gives me with them even when I am mad at him and even when I cant stand to be in the same room with him.  I know that he is trying and that he is learning and that he cares for me... and for that I am thankful.

by the way I had fun tonight with Elissa taking pictures with her and Alexa it was so much fun! and I cant wait to get copies to share with everyone!

<3 me

Redbox

Whomever made up that little redbox is a frickin' genius!!! heck buy a 20 dollar movie~~loan it out for $1 a day and then sell it when I can no longer rent it and not have to deal with the kid behind the counter at blockbuster... GENIUS!!!  

Son mis locuras and sometimes the locuras of my kids

Sometimes the kids say some of the most hilarious things.  In this case Jacob my 6 year old son who is innocent and wonderfully hilarous too!

Today is March 17th...aka St. Patty's day:  My sister tells me that Jacob told her that his teacher speaks LEPRECHAUN so my sister asks him: really? how do you know?  He answers: "Yeah, she is IRISH"
and then he proceeds to say POTATO with an IRISH accent saying that she taught him the word for potato in LEPRECHAUN.  I was laughing when I heard this and just had to share with "ALL" my loyal readers hahahahaha....(that is funny in itself)

This past Christmas I had Jacob and Kiana writing letters to Santa.  Kiana is the kidlet and with all the problems that her mom has given our family this year we were suprised that she was able to spend time with us during Christmas break.  of course Kiana is oblivious to what is happening with the court stuff but our kids have been exposed to all the drama because it has not only been a headache for us but for them as well.


SO as they are writing thier letters he turns to her and says:  "Your mom is not getting anything from Santa this year."  She looks confused and he continues by saying... "she's not getting anything because she has been naughty ALLLLLL year"
 
Son mis locuras and also sometimes the locuras of my kids I <3 them so very much!

random question from BlogSpot!

You've been invited to a fancy ball but the only thing you have to wear is an orange wooly jumper. What shoes do you wear?

My pink hippo Vans of course!!!

why I believe in the death penalty

so I am sure that everyone who has some sort of connection to mass media heard about the killer whale that killed the trainer.




you are also probably hearing the rants of the people who believe that it should be killed because it is a danger and that this is not it's first instance of killing a person. blah blah blah blah blah.....



so for this one time only I might agree with them and say sure lets kill the whale who killed a person... but then we should also kill all those people out there who have killed people too!



Yes I believe in the death penalty.... and to those of you who say you don't... don't wait for someone that you love and care about is killed to change your mind. There are people out there who lose loved ones every day to murderers and you seem to have no sympathy for those who have lost a loved one by siding with a killer.



Although I believe in God and in the power of forgivness. I also know that murder is an unforgivable sin. And some people will say it is not my place to judge them and that only God can do that. Yes, I know that God will judge them in the last days,  but there is also such a thing as the law of the land.

bonita

although you may not think you are


or others may tell you you are not

remember that you have the name

"bonita" for a reason



Heavenly Father loves you very much

At times you may doubt and your faith may fail

but you know the truth



your family loves you and cares

not only about your physical health

but also your spiritual health



stay strong and cling to those that

will guide you in

remember that you are a daughter of Heavenly Father!