been a while again but here goes once more... i am going to miss Elissa she is going to be leaving AZ for most of her Christmas vacation everytime I think about it my eyes water up and I want to cry. I dont want to think about Christmas morning without her being here with me and I know I will probably be bawling because she is not here with us and even though I know my kids all have to grow up some time. I also know that she has only 4 more years until she is 18 and can bid me adieu withough looking back (i doubt she would do that) and my heart is already dreading it. It seems like yesterday when she was telling me that she could go to the bathroom by herself and I started crying then too. I guess that even though Alexa, Abram and Jacob also said the same thing to me back in the day.... it wasnt as harsh as when your first baby tells you in not so many words that they are growing up.
and although, Thanksgiving has come and gone I am so thankful for the many blessings in my life....
1. My family who although sometimes I am sure can't believe that I am such a weirdo and I am sure at times they get fed up with me and my problems. I am so thankful that they live so close to me that I can see my mom and dad and siblings every day and that we are close enough that we can enjoy each other's company and help each other out at any time on any day. We really and truly are a family and i am so thankful for that
2. my Kiddos who although ALWAYS I am sure can't believe that thier mother is such a wierdo and I am sure at times wish they had a stay at home betty crocker june cleaver type mom. I am so thankful that Heavenly father has blessed me by allowing me to be thier mom and also by giving me such strong and independant and beautiful children
3. My Faith who although I am not always the strongest or the holiest of believers and although I know I should really really be choosing the right even when I am not. I know that Heavenly Father is always there for me even when I am not always there for him. I know the Church is true and I am thankful for the free agency that I am given and for the blessings and knowledge which the Church has brought into my life.
4. Last but not least for Jason who although is NOT the awesomest most handsomest most strongest most bestest husband nor is he always the bestest friend. I am thankful that he is who he is and for the paitience that he has with me and my kids and for all the help that he gives me with them even when I am mad at him and even when I cant stand to be in the same room with him. I know that he is trying and that he is learning and that he cares for me... and for that I am thankful.
by the way I had fun tonight with Elissa taking pictures with her and Alexa it was so much fun! and I cant wait to get copies to share with everyone!
<3 me
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Wow girl it's been ages! How have you been and how are things going with the family and not just the kids but you and Jason as well. Hang in there. Josh and I have our moments but we always manage to come around. You both have to work and work hard at things. Remember you are not raising the kids 'alone' any more or with the help of your parents. Make sure that you and Jason are on the same page when it comes to the kids and if not don't discuss it in front of them. I know the two of you will make it work. I hope what ever things were going on will resolve for both of you soon. Much love,
Cyn
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